Friday, February 11, 2005

sadly misguided
I am not always right. In fact, I'm often quite wrong. And many times I will make the same mistake repeatedly, forgetting that I was wrong the first time and not realizing until after I made the same mistake twice or three times.

I had this crazy idea that going on retreat would help me to refocus and relax and put life back in order. The reverse has happened. Life is chaos. My bags are still mostly packed, and I have another completely full weekend ahead, not to mention a 46 hour work week and 3.75 hours of aerobics before I hit my next and only slightly less insane weekend.

I know that retreat does not fix life. And I know that it doesn't make things become magically organized at home while I'm away. Yet I make the same mistake by thinking the exact same thing every time I go on retreat. I hope that next time I think about going on retreat I will remember to re-read this post so that I don't leave with any false ideas.

Briefly I will mention that retreat did help me to relax and recover from my first hour of aerobics and I feel a little better, more hopeful, about some situations in my life. I have other things jotted down that I'd like to share from the weekend, but those will have to wait.

Tomorrow, I get to assist on a tour of the local parish for a bunch of third graders and their parents. When I agreed to this, I didn't know parents were involved. So I'm going to go have a mini-anxiety attack and get some sleep. Did I mention that nobody said parents would be involved? I don't talk to parents! I talk to their small children. Parents are scary.
...and yet I think I want to BE one? Maybe it's time for another retreat.
# posted by Amy : 9:15:00 PM